Part Six,B: Sleep.

I open my eyes, and feel the warmth of waking up, and the burden that it is.
I arise, I walk around. A walking, talking zombie. My pc is on.
Wow.
I open up msn. Why do i still do that again? Oh, yeah. Right.
"I awaiteth the ressurection of the dead", or something like that. I read that in greek anyway.
My eyes are not fully open, and I half wish i hadn't slept, or that i had insomnia or something like that. I stare at the computer screen, and suddenly the msn window opens. Did I open that? Oh, yeah. Right.
Nobody's in. If I expected the opposite, then I would surely be crazier than i am now. I still stare at the screen. I play around with my desktop and its folders. Oh, the glorious joy of doing nothing.
Too bad i can't see it anywhere.
I look at my watch. A second later, I can't remember what i just saw. I look at my watch again. And again, and again, and again. I can't seem the information to stay in my brain for more than two seconds.
It's one of those days again..
I realize my mouth is open, contrary to my half closed eyes. I click my way through some folders and a song starts playing.
"Let me take you down, 'cause I'm going to, Strawberry Fields..."
Take me.
Deliver me.
I don't want to be alone anymore.
I am just so bored and tired.
This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time.
"Hi Andy!! How are you?" That's my 23 year old cousin. Her name is Debby, and I don't remember if she really is that old.
Hi Deb. I'm doin' alright. You?
"I'm ok, a little tired from classes, but I'm better now." She smiles.
I laugh. I know, I say. School is equally annoying, boring, and time-wasting.
She nods and says, lunchtime's in 10 minutes.
I nod as well, my eyes still half closed and my mouth starting to look normal again.
Did I go to school today? No, wait. Let me rephrase that. What day is it today?
Some seconds pass.
Friday.
I look outside and it's afternoon, and therefore I must have gone to school. I must have taken the bullshit from the skinny, body-builder-like old lady who decided that what she said instantly was, or became interesting. I must have half fallen asleep whilst listening to the short, fat old man with the large moustache that seems to have gotten the idea that physics is a good subject, most probably during a not so good wank-off. I must have decided to take a two-hour break from the bullocks that pass for education, and sat down and cleared my mind looking in the sky and singing the first thing that came to my head.
After all, it's afternoon.
This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time.
My eyes open just a little more, so that now everything is a little less blurry.
I close my eyes, and when I open them again, I look down and i see an empty plate with some leftovers in it, I look around and I see mom, dad, and my cousin sitting round the table.
Had I eaten? What did I eat? Am I hungry?
I look at the fridge. It is amusing how it can have so many things in it, but not a single thing for me.
"What are you doing? You just ate." That's mom.
I just wanted some water. Fridge door's closed. So are my eyes, and again when I open them I am sitting in my chair, and staring at my computer's screen again. It seems that me and Quetz were talking about something. I try to shrug.
"So, we're on for tonight?"
What?
"tonight, man. Sleepover at my house."
Oh, yeah. Yeah. I'll be there.
My arms feel weak. I look at my watch. I can remember the time I just saw this time. It's 17:49 and 46 seconds.
Wow.
And I tilt my head back, and I pinch the bridge of my nose. And I can't stop thinking about her. Her, with her gorgeous little face, with one of the best characters (if not the best). I can't stop thinking about her. One of my friends says I'm in love. I don't know. I think I am. I got all the symptoms, my friend says. I get lost in my thoughts very often, I feel lonely all the time, especially when I am between others. I think of a certain person too much.
I am Little Monstrous Andy's complete lack of surprise. Or feelings, for that matter.
Today is simply not my day.
"The magical mystery tour is coming to take you away, take you today..."
Pfff.
I wish.